Ron Paul tells Mitt Romney to READ THE CONSTITUTION!
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Grace Bible church is a good place for healing!
SALT LAKE CITY — Doctors here have for years talked about the widespread use of antidepressants in the state. But there was no hard evidence until a national study that tracked drug prescriptions came to an unexpected conclusion:
Antidepressant drugs are prescribed in Utah more often than in any other state, at a rate nearly twice the national average.
Utah’s high usage was cited by one of the study’s authors as the most surprising finding to emerge from the data. The study was released last summer and updated in January.
Other states with high antidepressant use were Maine and Oregon. Utah’s rate of antidepressant use was twice the rate of California and nearly three times the rates in New York and New Jersey, the study showed.
Few here question the veracity of the study, which was a tabulation of prescription orders, said Dr. Curtis Canning, president of the Utah Psychiatric Assn. But trying to understand the “why” has puzzled many, he said.
“The one true answer is we don’t know,” said Canning, who has a private practice in Logan. “I have some hunches.
“In Mormondom, there is a social expectation–particularly among the females–to put on a mask, say ‘Yes’ to everything that comes at her and hide the misery and pain. I call it the ‘Mother of Zion’ syndrome. You are supposed to be perfect because Mrs. Smith across the street can do it and she has three more kids than you and her hair is always in place. I think the cultural issue is very real. There is the expectation that you should be happy, and if you’re not happy, you’re failing.”
http://articles.latimes.com/2002/feb/20/news/mn-28924
Steve Jobs had been battled pancreatic cancer since 2004 and had surgery which was thought to have defeated the cancer. But in the last couple of years Steve has had a number of new health problems, and recently resigned from Apple as CEO. Within 2 months of resigning Steve Jobs passed away.
Steve Jobs inspired millions all over the world with his logic and innovative spirit, and united many of the worlds top software and computer developers.
I have included Steve’s speech to Stanford in 2005. I made some comments about cancer and the cure for cancer. I also included a recent letter that Albert Hoffman wrote to Steve Jobs about LSD research.
References:
Steve Jobs dies at age 56
http://www.npr.org/2011/10/05/123826622/apple-visionary-steve-jobs-dies-at-56
Read a letter from Albert Hoffman to Steve Jobs
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/ryan-grim/read-the-never-before-pub_b_227887.html
Steve Jobs – Pirates of Silicone Valley
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jj6WTXCIPQU
This often ended up being a source of violence and contention for us. I was entirely against the religious ideals of the culture that I grew up in from as far back as I remember, but certainly at the age of 8 years old and forward.
I remember being baptized in the Mormon church to be initiated into the club. It was so very important to my dad and my grandpa to have my long hair cut short for this event. I remember crying in a fit of rage while I was held down and my hair was cut. The whole time I was thinking “The pictures of Jesus in the Bible and in the Book of Mormon showed him having long hair!”.
The whole “fitting in” thing got very un-necessary and un-desirable for me. I realized that this was just a country club and that I didn’t want to be a member. So I never attempted to fit in. I lived how I felt, and I tattooed it on my body so that I didn’t have the option of being one way to one person, and a completely different way to someone else.
It was important for me to make that stand. I went through many changes, and as I changed I added more and more ink. I have quite a history on my body to tell my story of growing up Mormon in a non-Mormon mindset.
So this brings me to when I was a teenager and I started getting stoned with my neighbor Joey. We both worked for his dad on the irrigation ditches as grunt laborers, and during our lunch and our breaks we’d blaze up a joint.
I felt this was one of the best parts of my day, and I really couldn’t understand prohibition.
So I started buying and wearing shirts that said “Cannabis will save the world”, “free the weed”, etc.
This got me no where fast with my teachers, neighbors and especially my parents.
After one of my parents big disputes, they separated for the 3rd or 4th time and I got tired of fighting with them over dumb shit and I moved in with my grandma Jennie (who we would later name our second child after). Grandma Jennie let me be a kid, and I really enjoyed the freedom of not having to kiss anyone’s ass, or having the expectation of being someone that I was not.
But my parents thought that I was just too independent, and confused it with being crazy, or having ADD, or something. So they doped me up on a bunch of pills.
Later they would complain that I was violent, loud, mean. However I was just trying to mind my own business and live outside their home when they started force feeding me prescription speed (Ritalin) and Zoloft (a highly unpredictable anti-depressant) after forcing me to move back in with them.
So then I developed a few drug habits at the ripe age of 15. After awhile of my drug usage, they got pissed because I was sharing joints with my siblings. I thought “damn, would you rather feed them pills for their issues, or something safe to relax with like weed”?
That attitude got me kicked out of my parents house shortly after they forced me to move back in with them.
This was the game for many years, in and then out, in and then out. I would often have the police called to have me brought home, just to end up running away after a violent episode. Sometimes caused by me, and sometimes caused by others in my family. But the results were usually the same. I would be myself, I would rebel a little bit, maybe color my hair, get a tattoo or something of that sort, and then they would load me up with drugs, and in the end there would be a violent episode.
To this day I have about 4 people who would love to blame all of the miserable episodes of their life on me. But these are the same people who were using their own forms of drugs while at the same time forcing drugs down my throat.
Later on my little brother Justin would kill himself at age 16 years old, while doped up just like I was doped up.
If anyone wants to know how this effects other kids, you don’t have to take my word for it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=URP6m0RaQzE
Now that my brother is dead, I often get the episode that killed him blamed on me, which at the time I was not on drugs, I was not violent, and I was taking my brother to church with me.
But because of his depression he was loaded up on several medications, even though depression is a very normal teenage emotion, and it was those drugs that killed him.
I have been using cannabis again since 2007 after quitting for many years, and there is absolutely no way that I get violent now, or back when I was a kid after using cannabis. I don’t get depressed, I don’t get anxious, I don’t get loud, and I don’t get suicidal. But because it was an “illegal drug” it gets blamed over and over and over by parents for their kids behavior.
If only parents could understand that these horrible, toxic prescription drugs are the cause. Or if the would have saw the signs of these drugs while they were getting them prescribed to us.
Utah leads the nation in two very tragic things.
- 1. Prescription drug abuse
- 2. Teen Suicide
My heart goes out to parents who have been duped into giving their kids toxic prescription medications.
My advice. Deal with your kids one on one, don’t dope them up to solve easy problems that all teenagers go through!
I feel being open and honest is always the best way to improve one’s self and doing it in a public way invites criticism sometimes, which is like tempering your person.
I think criticism is a good thing, and if honest open dialog can be had, then sometimes it can strengthen relationships, or let you know where you stand with someone.
In my years of blogging or writing it never meant a lot to other people until the invention of massive social networking such as on facebook, myspace, etc.
Now people are more likely to find my words and often I find that it brings out the true meaning of our relationship.
So many times someone will say one thing to your face, but they will say something completely different to someone else. But with social networking that makes it a lot more difficult to do.
If someone is posting something publicly for others to read, and then someone who has been fake to you sees what is being said and they change their tone, it becomes obvious what the deal is to more than one person.
Eventually separating the chaff from the wheat so to speak.
I have found this in more than one conversation, and it seems like those who have been fake for several years though friendly to my face become distant when they can no longer wage their secret shit talking campaign behind my back.
I have found that I have lost 2 or 3 friendships this way.
It’s just weird quirky things that come up. Like someone who I once dated and was friends with for many years unfriended me when we had a disagreement about who introduced me to the book “The Secret Language of Birthdays”.
Simple, and non-consequential topic. But apparently she had a lot invested in that topic, enough to remove me, after asking me for advice and chatting with me many many times since our recent reunion on facebook.
Over a book?
It makes me glad to know that issues like this exists, so that I can move forward and leave the garbage behind. But it does make me a little sad that all I was worth to them was what they could be responsible for introducing me to.
I linked a page from that book to this girl’s profile, and she “LoL”ed at me and said “I introduced you to that book”.
I said “sorry, the person who introduced me to that book, is here on facebook and she introduced it to me before you and I ever spent any time together”. Instantly she removed me, and for about 8 months has had me blocked on facebook. Over a freakin book! LOL
Petty things like that I just don’t need in my life. But I was sure to take a screenshot, because it sempt so bizzare!
Then in many other relationships, I have found that the social network platforms have grown friendships even closer. People that I have known for 20 years have become closer friends after getting to chat with each other without having to make a special one on one occasion of meeting in person. Just getting to know each other’s thoughts have developed more insight and understanding for one another.
Keeping up with relationships that are thousands of miles apart is also an awesome aspect of this new communication platform that we have. Sharing pictures from things that happened and getting them to the people who we care about on the same day. Or video clips of birthday parties, etc.. It an awesome thing IMHO.
Im glad to have separated the chaff from the wheat though. Life is short, no need to waste time on worthless relationships that are not friendly or that are secretly unfriendly.
REVOLUTION!
So after her being here, I have been reminded by family members who wrote me and for no reason told me about their distorted version of history from when I was a child. This was within the last stinkin month, after have not speaking to them for years. They write and call me out of the blue, because they didn’t like the website that I made for my brother Justin: http://justin-thompson.com
He is one of so many kids who kill themselves in Utah, so I made a site for him, so his life was not in vain. But they have always maintained that his death was an accident. But according to what I know, and according to the death certificate, I KNOW his death was no accident. And he was trying to send a message. I haven’t let that message die!
This reminds me of what I fought so hard to be independent, to move out on my own and do my own thing.
In my opinion my family had a way of blaming others for their immediate and life long issues. Whether they were blaming me, or blaming my grandma, or my dads other children. It was ALWAYS someone who they were blaming. But when they did something fantastic, they took all the credit.
So I wanted to distance myself from this at an early age, and take the credit for what I have done, and move away from the blame game that was going on when I was a child. I knew that if I didn’t leave in time, I would be blamed for their history of negative life eevnts. It was already going on when I was 12, when my father called me drunk from jail and said “See look what your behavior does to this family”. As HE is sitting in jail pissed and drunk. That would be one of many of those drunken adventures.
So by age 13 I moved out. First with my grandma for a few years, until my family tried to force me back home by putting me in a drug rehab, when I was TOTALLY anti-drug (at the time). And then took me home with them.
Within a year I was moved out again, this time with my cousin and her boyfriend.
And by the time I was 19 I was homeless on the streets of Seattle and I was that way throughout the USA for about 2.5 years.
Now I am clean, no cigarettes, no alcohol, no other drugs. I used herbal remedies like marijuana as prescribed by my doctor for my headaches. But other than marijuana I don’t use the variety of substances that I grew up around. I have a great family, 2 girls and one kid on the way. I make good money, and my wife is able to be a stay at home mom, which she is amazing! And despite going through some troubles and tribulations in life, I don’t have any complaints, and I wouldn’t do things differently. Im very happy where I am.
Going back to Utah brings back bad memories from time to time. But Im going to have to continue to face it. At least for the time being. It is good to go back and see old friends though! Much love Utah, soon to be Behind the Zion Curtain myself for a week.
Bless up!
I have had people say shit about me that nearly made me get a polygraph test.
So as a piece of advice to anyone who cares about their friends, and who dont want their friends to take sides or feel that stress.. Here is a list of polygraph testers in Washington. If you post it on facebook, expect that people are going to have advice and maybe questions. As I have learned recently about responding publicly to public accusations.
http://www.polygraphplace.com/docs/c-15-s-Washington-examiners.html
I personally can’t afford this right now, and I don’t see it majorly urgent, since the accusations aren’t serious.
But if the accusations are serious, talk to your lawyer, friend, or go directly to the source and get your side of the story scientifically tested so other people can move on who may be caught in the middle.
For Christians, you’ll understand that even Jesus the all forgiver had his limits.
Mt 15:21–19:1
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew+15%3A21-19%3A1&version=KJV
Thanks for putting up with my personal hell. And I’ll tell ya something. KARMA IS A BITCH! Because Lord knows I deserved some of this hell. But I think some people got a little carried away and blamed their whole sad life on me.
Anyway I was on the other side of this tonight, where I was caught in the middle of two people I care about. I have decided I didn’t like being in that position, and I don’t want anyone else to have to be exposed to any of that negativity, I have tried to keep my whining to a minimum and Im going to buck up a little more and move on.
I have hundreds and hundreds of Youtube videos that I offer a constructive opinion and try to encourage others to work towards freedom. Usually, I have been able to overcome talking about family issues.
These are my youtube accounts:
http://youtube.com/xcannabiscom
http://www.youtube.com/modwatchcom
http://youtube.com/behindzioncurtain
I was always distressed about having to keep my opinions and ideas about weed quiet when i was a kid, so at age 13 I started getting tattooed. By the time I was 15, I was tattooed from head to toe, litterally, and my family kicked me out because we were not seeing eye to eye to say the least. It was a dream come true leaving there. Because I could be me, the annoying, aggressive, loud, and determined person that I am. And even though that personality isn’t very popular. Its who I am, and I like it. So funk off anyone who doesn’t!
And I want other people to know that they don’t have to be ashamed of their cannabis usage. I am a productive cannabis consumer who is husband, dad of 2+one on the way, grandson,
brother, productive jack of all trades, entrepreneur, business partner, employee of 3+ years at the same job.
I have been in the gutter, abusing substances, living under bridges and in caves, moving from state to state, almost dieing many times, to being a person who can hold their chin up.
I think I have done a lot of the things that I set out to do, and several folks wrote me and thanked me for writing my story and who could relate in only a disaffected Mormon could who grew up in the church.
But it’s time to start a new chapter in my life. I am going to write a book, but a book of fiction or poetry.I started writing again when I started going through this shit again. So if at nothing else, it inspired me to start writing again. Take what is good, and leave the rest behind has the book of Timothy says.
This is a good book about how Mormon family become “suddenly strangers”, it’s bizzare. But very common.
Suddenly Strangers by Brad and Chris Morin
Social Distortion – Story Of My Life
Kid Cudi – Soundtrack of My Life
Johnn Cash – Man In Black
Thanks for listening
Facebook has been a great place to find others of differing POVs to discuss these topics with.
Intelligent Design (response to Richard Dawkins) by Ryan Thompson
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJkegvQZtto
This is references to material that I used in this video
Part 1:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X4z0IVivslc
Part 2:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YO7gV41PNcA
Part3:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YO7gV41PNcA
part4:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3NQTMfG4FB4
part5:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zpNt8d2jgSU
part 6:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LQh1E_jT8iw
Part 7:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cj3PWUF7zAw
— Richard Dawkins on Religious Hallucinations
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WmHDiJHxEic
— Different Faiths Same God by Reverend Ryan
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A2DsQjnYOBY
See the thing about Hitler and other’s being Christian, I think that is to make the term a very broad term. For example if Catholics are Christian, then how do you explain the inquisitions and the ‘dark ages’?
First of all, they violate ne…arly every command ever given, and also those that carried out, participated in any way or supported the inquisitions even if only by way of fear and apathy, then these so called “Christians” aren’t really Christian’s as their entire life is lived contrary to Christ’s very core teachings in ever way.
And Catholic’s killed other Christians as “heretics” in these inquisitions because they taught of a peaceful and loving Christ which was not what the Catholics were demonstrating in their religion.
When people say “Catholics” did this and “Catholics” did that. What you could also say is that “The Government did this and the government did that”. The term “Government” would actually be more appropriate because whenever you see something like this done by a church or religion, the religion is almost always acting as the government as well. When in fact Jesus taught something different, even about the Holy Spirit being a more superior form of government, something that man has no monopoly on.
Government really doesn’t fit the character or the actions of Jesus Christ. Jesus walked the walked, and disciplined himself as an example. Governments don’t work that way. Governments work in a way that they don’t hesitate to tell you what you are doing wrong, but they themselves do not scrutinize themselves in the same manner.
That’s human nature, not religious nature.
But teaching kids Gnosis is very liberating. The Catholics, the same murderers as those involved in the inquisitions, were the same who restricted the scriptures to only the wealthy and the religious (of a Catholic persuasion). The reason why the Catholics had so much control, is because they also wanted to hide knowledge away from those that they considered “young” or “weak”, ya know, not yet ready to handle the truth just yet.
You take knowledge away, you take a lot more than just knowledge.
You strip identity, history, diversity, and so so much more. But the most scary is control. You give control back to the powerful who have all of the knowledge.
I don’t think we give kids enough credit. I think given room to breath, they can figure things out ya know.
Now forcefeeding kids religion, and demanding that they subscribe to religion I think is wrong. It should be shunned. But who are you to say that someone elses culture is wrong, or illegal? You have to think about when you take the rights away from one group of people, you are reducing the rights of many people, even those who still have rights, but may be the next group up for a challenge on their cultural ideals.
When it comes back around, instead of having more freedom, we will ALL have less.
http://behindzioncurtain.com
http://sensilife.com
Its because Utahans are sad. It is a depressing place when you can’t enjoy a joint without the possibility of attracting the police which have the motivation to ruin your entire life. After all, the more drug arrests the police make, the more federal funding they get for their PD.
“Deadly taboo: Youth suicide an epidemic that many in Utah prefer to ignore”
http://www.deseretnews.com/article/635201873/Deadly-taboo-Youth-suicide-an-epidemic-that-many-in-Utah-prefer-to-ignore.html
“Depression in Utah”
http://behindzioncurtain.com/depression-in-utah/
“Utah #1 in the nation for prescription abuse”
http://tinyurl.com/ygf3wop
“Teen Suicide Utah”
http://tinyurl.com/ylzpoyq
Memorial website for Justin Thompson
There is a lot to be said about Biblical people in South Africa.
Emperor Haile Selassie I, the 225 Emperor in the Solomonic Dynasty, a decedent of Solomon and the Makeda aka The Queen of Shebah.
Then you have the Lemba which have a direct and genetic lineage to the Cohen Priesthood of the Jews, or the High Priests.
Which is interesting, because these folks are still High Priests, and yet they are black. Not only did Mormons say that all of the high priests were killed off. But they also said blacks were cursed and could not even hold the priesthood.
These Lemba have more of a right to hold the priesthood of God than most Mormons. In fact I know very few Mormons who qualify, since they do not meet the requirements in Numbers 3, about being sons of Aaron. These Lemba are Sons of Aaron, and have preserved their Jewish rites for 2000 years since leaving Israel in 70 A.D.
Shalom!